March 26, 2015

Goodbye. Feels.



Another day passes by like this
My whole day was spent for you
I wore the clothes that you liked the best
I should look beautiful in the mirror
But I just look miserable
The tactless night sky is so beautiful
I wish you could be me
I wish I could be you
I wish you could feel it for just a day
Your heart
My heart
I wish I could love you
I wish you would love me
I wish we could be together just for a day
So I can let you go without regrets
I want to throw away everything in front of me
I want to scream out loud but
The only one to listen would be me
Along with the burning candle
There’s not much left to my heart
This beautiful house feels like prison
The tactless night sky is so beautiful

Sometimes, I want to push everything back and go out like you
I want to wash down my pain with alcohol, my sadness with laughter
But I don’t
MUA. there is lot of words that I wanted to tell you.

But I dont have any courage, to face you.

I keep thinking that you and I were from the different space. but you know the reality,  we were stood in the same ground, same age, same era, same everything. You know, the world never lied.
Its you the one, who hiding and didn't want to face the truth. its you the one who affraid, to make it true.

You are fool.

But,
Im the dumbest. Big Fool.
To keep waiting. You know I was unpatient one.

You Know how happy I was, when you said, you dont want to go without me?
How Happy and worried I was knowing you called me because you had some accident?
You know how happy I was when you ask me to go out with you, just two of us. without anyone around?
Just our time together. But why I feel like it was a dream, midsummer daydream?
You know how dissapointed I was when you cant pick me up?
We were live in same building. with different floor. but still happy when you told me everything.

 If they see at us. They never know how different we were.
You and your circle. Me and my circle. thats the differs.
I cant live on Your world. and You cant live on mine.
Its Completely Different. even you and I taking a breath  from same Oxygen.
But its like we weren't meant to be together. It so sad.

Good Bye MUA. Lets be A BESTFRIEND. :')